Re: behind my shadow

Re: When facing Rhinos and Lions

2008-10-22T21:10:00.004+08:00

today in class the Prof talked about one of my fav shows... Man vs Wild... and he talked about what to do when faced with a charging rhino or when a lion come running it you.

The solution may not be what you would have guessed it to be...
Most of us would say... RUN!!! but try out running the both of them... you'll only find yourself either mauled to death or being served as a unique cuisine for the lions.

what to do... is not what your instincts tell you to... which most of us would run... but rather the right thing to do... is...

for the rhinos, stand your ground and only when the rhino is running and charging and very near you... then you dash to your left or right and run for cover. (try to decide on one before you dash, in case you happened to be undecided, and before you know it... flattened)

for the lions... listen well... jump up and down, wave your arms, make noise and hopefully you'll scare it away... due to youe 'enlarged' size. if you dont succeed, it least you made the lion's day by giving it a good laugh. =)

point of the day... sometimes don't trust you instincts... but rather, know what you need to do... so as to see the next sunrise. =)

Re: Project Runway (NIE style)

2008-08-08T23:10:00.002+08:00

hey hey,

today there was this national day event at NIE where students had to dress up in costumes that they made to refer the uniquely Singapore flavour as well as the Youth Olympics that Singapore would be holding in the year 2010.
It was really great fun as I was one of the few 'chosen' to be dressed up. It was a long an tiring process trying to get the costume to fruition, but it was fun! =)
Another friend of mine was also involved and she got into the final rounds... that was like so cool... haha...
Sadly, I didn't, but it was still quite an experience getting to walk on stage and do a catwalk... haha... like models...
When the event was over, it was like so late already... tired as i was, i just made my way home... a bit bored... so maybe i'll sleep early... thinking about stuff... making my brain hurt a bit... haha...
next week... got assignemnts due, quizzes coming up... and project running due... 'Exciting' lifestyle at NIE... lol...
=)

Re: Back to school

2008-08-06T01:56:00.001+08:00

I'm once again back in school... NIE to be precise... and i'm already feeling the tired long days... haha... =)
still going to study a bit more before i hit the sack... jia you! =)

Re: anime

2008-05-14T00:26:00.002+08:00

hihi,
just wanted to comment on some of the anime i managed to watch recently and hopefully, u too will join in my hobby of watching anime.
Recent favs, would include code geass: lelouch of the rebellion R2, macross frontier, D-grayman. Of course, i ommitted those common ones like naruto and bleach, i believe thatmost of you who do watch anime, would be watch those already.

D-grayman has been sticking to the manga storyline, which is a good thing, rather than all those useless 'filler' episodes in other animes. The fighting part is picking up, which is a good thing, esp the upcoming battles btw the noah and the exorcists.

Macross frontier is something new, can't gauge where is it yet... but it has to do with mecha... macross somemore... so oh well... haha

Code geass is one of my fav, although i think most of you anime people may not have heard or keep to it... but i think you should... haha...

One series that I recently completed would be the Seirei no Moribito. It's a really nice series that has already been completed. I really like the fighting scenes, as well as the heartwarming scenes in the show. a real good show with a balance of family, fighting and fantasy.

That's all for now... will keep you all updated.

Re: hey hey

2008-05-14T00:23:00.002+08:00

long long long long time no see... how have all of you been?
i'm thinking of restarting my blog again as i've got a lot of things to say... just not very good at finding a medium to talk about it. so i figured... y not blog again... haha... hope i can continue on rather than to stop every now and then...
jia you!

love,
Zhiying

Re: pictures just for you

2007-04-17T20:54:00.000+08:00

yup yup... so i did went to do some searching and managed to get some pictures... so here they are...

after watching episode 3 of gurren lagann, i sure got a good laugh out of the series so far. Kamina, the tall guy with the cool glasses in the anime, does the funniest things, and at the end of the day, something unexpected happens from it. the series is nice and fun to watch, and i wonder how long the anime will run for this title...

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Re: mecha

2007-04-17T15:29:00.000+08:00

Apprently, the mecha nowadays in japanese anime have upgraded to have a mind of its own. Currently, two of the three mecha related anime that i'm watching, have a mind of its own. they are iDOLM STER XENOGLOSSIA and Gigantic Formula. For the both of them, they robots sort of chose their own pilots and thats that.

With the ending of some of the series like Busou Rekin, Ghost hunt, Gundam Seed Destiny, Zegapain, S-Strain and Code geass(the last 4 are mecha related), new anime titles have surfaced!

Other than the two that i mentioned, other titles like Claymore, Tengen Toppa Gurren-Lagann and Heroic age are some of the other anime titles that you should watch! yup yup, pictures-wise, would depend on if i got time to find them and make them into wallpapers, so for now just look for them via google! ciaoz...

Re: google search

2007-04-16T15:24:00.000+08:00

haha... something interesting that i just found out. If you go under google search and key in my name: kng zhiying, you would be able to find various info about me and even pictures too! that crazy man... =P

Re: new wallpaper

2007-04-07T02:11:00.000+08:00

decided that it was time to get a new wallpaper and wat better way to do that by designing your own... as most of my friends would know... i'm an anime fanatic, so wat better wallpaper to do than one on my fav anime series at the moment?

just to let u know... the series is called code geass, currently till episode 23 i think, and i think its a great series so far with more great action and twists to come.

my my... look at the time... need coffee... *zombified*

*update* did a minor change to the pic (let there be light)

Re: almost

2006-11-30T03:41:00.000+08:00

in another close to 12 hours time, my exams will be over, but to me, it's still a long way to go... rush rush... trying to finish what seems to be an impossible task to study for my last paper... but i still gotta fight it through...

anyway... if anyone watches anime, i would recommend one in particular, called Code Geass: Lelouch of the Rebellion. this anime is pretty good, at least in my opinion as it brings in the human factor into the anime, which i find pretty nice , as it builds that realism, that humans, are to a certain degree, 'real'.

This means that they have their own opinions and frame of mind at times, which is something that is not always accounted for, and is and will be the main source of failure point.

oh well, back to studying, so if u got time, just go check it out.

Wish me luck for my last paper!!

Re: first exam paper today

2006-11-15T13:15:00.000+08:00

anyway... first paper today... professional communication. It was an open book paper... LOng time since I had one... so it was not too bad... had references and stuff.
Well... next paper tomorrow... gotta start on it soon. another written paper. Got 3 in a row for three day. So i guess its loads of readings and more of writing.
Gotta start on my other more 'engineering' papers today too. if not, i dont think i can finish them.
ZZzzzzzZzz....

Re: Exams INCOMING! ! ! ! ! ! !

2006-11-11T22:12:00.000+08:00

exams are next week, start on wednesday, which would end only by the end of the month, it's gonna be a long half a month but i'll be ok. I hope.

Yeah... good thing i have my anime to watch, helps to motivate me along the way, but as for my laptop, it's currently KO, not wanting to face me. (in other words, the screen face is dead) awaiting the end of exams so that I could have it fixed.

many thanks to alfred who lent me a monitor so that at least i can work on my report.
yup yup... a short update, and a long night of studying. ciaoz...

p.s. got my lastest united live CD, to keep me through the night...

Re: Elmo

2006-09-24T08:44:00.000+08:00

For all you Elmo fans out there...

Seriously... I would not buy such a toy even for myself... its true that it does seem funny and enjoyable to have one at home... but i think i would be freaky if it just started laughing in the middle of the night!!

Re: back

2006-09-22T02:39:00.000+08:00

came up with a new template as I could not longer stand the old one... decided to do one with bleach... and so, here it is....

this week has been busy with the 3014 quiz, not one of my favs but still gotta give it my best shot... just hope that i can at least score a few points. gonna stay up the whole night to get the concepts straightened out...

recently quite a few of my frens have started to attend interviews and recruitment drives already... wonder if i should do the same... ONE WEEK BREAK COMING LIAO!!!
Yeah!! at least got time to do some catching up with my work and all the projects that need to be done... FYP gotta buck up a bit liao...

Re:

2006-06-09T10:15:00.000+08:00

has it been that long since i posted a blog??
wow... havent noticed it... have been quite busy these few weeks... with all the final attachment report that i needed to hand up... as well as the projects that need to be rushed... since today i got a bit more time(or just that i can't be bothered with the IC already), i shall blog a bit...

Re: Bleach Movie

2006-05-17T12:46:00.000+08:00

Hiyo...

for all you bleach fans out there... I have included a small clip on the upcoming bleach movie!! (refer to sidebar) It's scheduled to be released in Dec this year!! :)

Re: Over the Hedge

2006-05-13T11:24:00.000+08:00

Over the Hedge movie is coming out!! one of my fav comic strips is gonna be featured as a movie!! So gotta go watch it! Going out with my church to watch it too!! wanna join us?
So here is a desktop wallpaper that I made for it... Enjoy!!

Re: update

2006-05-11T02:01:00.000+08:00

hi all...
After long last, i got down to changing my bloggie... no no... my bloggie wasn't down, or so i thought... changed to some new template, but somehow, the feedback was that it was just an empty white screen!!! *shock*
finally got down to changing it... the last template was retroish... so now changed to a bright brIGHT BRIGHT one... haha... *killed by glare*
still got some gliches i think... but dun think it's within my powert to change...
anyway... the comments box is thrown out of the window *crash* *OUCH* *ambulance sounds* *wee hoo wee hoo*
(poor fellow)
yup yup... that's all for now... time to KO....ZzzZZzzz....*drone*

Re: flowers

2006-04-27T10:27:00.000+08:00

Added a new poem at the start of the page when you first 'stepped' into my blog... i love writing poems and write as and when i can. today's is entitled 'flowers'. inspired when i was walking to work, i would see a fence with lots of morning glory. some are in bloom, while others are withering... hence the poem...
yup yup... hope u like it... and i hope to write more as time goes by... but i dun think i'll be posting my older ones... fresh ones are better... haha...

Re: finished (not quite)

2006-04-26T12:06:00.000+08:00

haha... should have paid more attention during computer classes, would have made my computing code life better.
well then, im still trying to see if i got it right for now... cos i lost one date line for my "Re:Pet" post... and dun seem to be able to recover it. but i think the comments bar is working for now... just that's it a bit more troublesome where you have to click on the '0 comments' first, then click on entries again, before you can post. other then that, do use the home to go back to the blog after you're done, anything else means that you have to click on the dates in the portfolio to get the specific blog entry you want.
So have fun for now... and visit often to feed ham ham...
*still trying to figure out the date thing*

Re: comments

2006-04-25T18:57:00.000+08:00

hihi...

changed the layout/template for my blog, but the comments section is not functionable at the moment, will try to get it working... but for the moment, just tag me!!

Re: pet...

2006-04-25T09:26:00.000+08:00

well well.. spent a whole day trying to find a new blog template to use... but apprently, there are many nice ones out there... but none of them for me... i think i would want to design one one my own, but i dun know how it works... as in how you get to load a template as a blog and stuff... but i will try... if u know of any info, do let me know about it... many thanks!!

but for now... all you will get is to meet my new pet... ham ham... and yes, its a hamster... newly adopted, fondly loved... go ahead and feed it... make it happy...
it thrives on low fat, vitamin filled strawberries... not to mention constantly running on the wheel, means that it will never grow fat... just like me!! hees... *evil grin*

Re: Passion

2006-04-05T10:17:00.000+08:00

When it comes to doing work, or anything... most of the time we find that we are lacking the drive, or motivation in doing it. This is due to the lack of passion in our work, duties or just things that we need to do.

When finding the passion to do things, many would ask, 'where would the passion come from?' As you read on, you would find a few reasons how we can find passion in doing what you need to do.

The first reason: Purpose

What is the reason that you need to do this? Is it so that you can have enough money to pay for you car? is it so that you can be accountable for the job that is entrusted to you? Or is it just that you can please someone and not get a nagging at the end ofthe day?

Purpose helps you focus on why you need to get the job done. And that can be a source for passion to arise. Because i love my wife, therefore i need to drive 5 blocks down just to pick her up from work. Because i want to be that best guitarist in the world, there I need to practise more.

the second reason for passion: Revelation

by revelation, it refers to the 'finding out, discovering of something, both from God or just from your own understanding'. it could be, 'that day when i was watching a documentary on the hungry african children, God touched my heart that i will reach out to them.' or it could that when you were practising your instrument, you noticed that you have a talent in playing the saxaphone.

revelation propels you to fulfill that job that you need to do. this is because to comes out from something more than just knowing the purpose, but knowing that there is more. it strengthens the purpose and you know that there is more in store, more to look forward to as you do the job/work.

the third reason: Joy

why joy? it is because when you have joy when you do something, it makes the job/task enjoyable. this means that you would to it, because you like to do it. if you like designing, when you are to design a poster, there would be joy when working on it. that does not mean that when you face problems, you dun get frustrated by it. what it means is that when problems come, you may get irritated, but you don't let the problems weigh you down, but face them and overcome them.

Joy is not a reaction, but rather, a choice. When you realise that it is a choice, you would know that when circumstances arise against you, you would still be able to keep that joy.
The reason why joy is the one of the most powerful of the reasons for passion is because its not only a choice, but also a character change. The first two reasons are more of a reaction to the situation, but with Joy, it arises from a long lasting change to the way that one views things.
This allows us to always keep the passion in doing the things that we love to do, and always recieving joy from it.

Live the passion, recieve the joy, one world sold out for Jesus.

Re: ice age(edited)

2006-03-27T15:03:00.002+08:00

After some fishing, i found them...
something nice for you guys... a prelude to ice age 3: invasion of the penguins

Re: ice age

2006-03-27T15:03:00.000+08:00

another one just for you!
not very impressive... but cute! hope to get the piranas just to add to the fun... but can't find them... *fishing*

Re: Movie backgrounds

2006-03-27T10:25:00.000+08:00

McIB???

Got nut?

Re: back

2006-03-27T09:30:00.000+08:00

hihi... after a long break... im back blogging!! yeah... (clap clap) hees...
it's just that the last week has been a busy one and didnt really get down to blogging and stuff... so a short recap of last week's busyness...

the first major thing was that my NTU tutor came down to 'visit' me. oh... it wasn't a causal visit, but rather to assess me on my Industrial Attachment (IA). So the whole week, i had to write my log book of happenings for the past 10 weeks... and yeah... that means less time to blog. But he came, he saw, and he left... nothing much that he said, but at least he seemed happier then when i called him on the phone, or went down to see him personally that time. maybe it's the NTU office, makes professors grumpy... =X

on to the second point of my blog...

learning to drive has always been and interesting experience, the instuctors that you meet and the on the road driving... on one of the drives, i met 2 people that we trying to come into my lane... and almost causing an accident!! but it was a nice experience... and the instructor was good, with his lightning reflexes, steered me to safety... but this also talks about the type of drivers that we have on the roads nowadays...
another instructor was pretty grumpy from the start. not talking, just keep on saying, 'this mistake will cause you XX points.' not really the encouraging type. the whole driving, was such that... how should i put it... i can't wait for it to get over.
apparently, the difference was in that, the grumpy one is a full time instructor... while the other one is not... hence, being stuck in a car with 'wannabe' drivers, makes you grumpy too... lol

but... i wanna be different from the world. Even the first instructor, the friendly one, has his own problems, and he did seem concerned about it when we talked. I wanna be the one that when people talk to, they feel refreshed, that i will not be one that speaks negative things, but instead, change the whole way people see things. problems are problems becuse you allow them to be. sometimes, a little change in your perspective goes a long way.

working life is indeed not easy. you have to consider about you work when its office time, the pressure from the boss, the late hours that you have to work till... but all in all, give yourself time... time to do the things that you like (or buy something like you like)... to cheer yourself up once in a while, to give yourself a pat on the back, and say 'well done'.

be a light in the darkness, bring happiness instead of sadness, be joyful instead of being depressed. be a different from the world, be a world changer.

Re: neighbourhood

2006-03-15T12:43:00.000+08:00

this post has always been on my mind, but just didnt get to write it down.

Ever since the army time, which is like 4 to almost 5 years that i have not been in my neighbourhood. it's not that i dun wanna walk around and see, but it's just that i usually only have my saturdays and sundays, which are not many days in the first place.

so ever since i moved back home for my attachment during the start of the year, i got to see and experience more of my neighbourhood, and it was indeed something different.

Of course, there would be usual obvious changes like the new buildings, but when i happen to pass by shop by shop, i noticed that some of the shops that i thought were still there, have already changed owners! the old, messy bookshop where i got my stationary, has now changed to one that sells clothes. the other bookshop that is always in competition with the old, messy bookshop is now selling toys and other stuff on top of stationary only.

about a month ago, i fell sick, so i went to see the doctor. When i opened the door, i was surprised to see that he had already had grey hair, and not the young doctor picture that i always had. (it maybe due to that doctors are very stressed, so they get white hair faster) When i went to the photocopying shop that i went when i was in secondary school, (to buy phonecards and collect them) the uncle was also so much older.

recently, i went to the coffeshop near my place to have noodles, and the whole coffeeshop was revamped and the noodle shop that i loved when i was younger, was still there! (heng ah) but the prices have already changed to $2.50-$3.50, instead of the usual cheap cheap $2. the stall also managed to have a signboard after so long...

Well, all these came as a shock to me, as my neighbourhood has already changed, or aged so fast. Indeed, it has been a long time since i'm back at home, getting to see my parents everyday. of course there are the good and bad, but for now, my just glad that im back at home, enjoying the neighbourhood and the 'little fairy' that places breakfast everyday on the table for me.

Re: busy

2006-03-03T15:41:00.000+08:00

nowadays... i'm quite busy with my work... this week just managed to finish up my circuit board. but although it's more or less done... im still waiting for my parts to come in so that i can test to see if it works. however, even before it get to test it, i have already encountered some problems, so im back to working on it again.

haha... can't quite get my brain to work too as i can really think of any design that may be nice... worked on the incredibles... but it doesnt work... tried working on captain america, but no nice pics... worked on the thundercats, but still trying it get it off the ground. so... on well, i guess i would just have to wait till some creative juices get squeezed out of my already dry brain... lol... let us all just wait and see...

Re: saturday

2006-02-27T12:38:00.000+08:00

I had a great saturday in church this week as i spent almost the whole day there, doing stuff and preparing for sunday service.

early in the morning, i made my way down to church for piano lessons... it was really a great time as i got down to know how to better play the songs and the different variations of doing so. although there was scolding, but it was cos we needed it... =X

then i stayed back till the ava training time at 530 and spent the time in betweeen 10am to 530pm to have a follow up with bro sean, take part in the children's ministry, as well as designing more backgrounds. (yes yes... they will be uploaded later)

then at 530 we had our ava training/ preparation which lasted till like close to 10pm in think. i was actually supposed to have dinner with my parents but surprisingly when i told them that i was doing stuff in church and don't think i can meet them, they agreed to it... haha... so yup yup... after a bit of tweaking of the pictures and fonts, the annoucements for church on sunday was done.

it was a long day in church but it was fun and enjoyable doing the things for God, as well as seeing the kids and playing around with them. and yes... we need a bigger place!! haha... building fund!!! =)

cheers...

*as promised, more backgrounds for you!!*

superman & batman (world's finest)

superman & batman2 (world's finest)

mighty mouse

Re: superheros

2006-02-24T13:15:00.000+08:00

*bangs head at wall*

brain not really working very well today... staring too long at the computer screen for the past few days... staring at it while in at work (i got two monitor screens too look at), staring at it when at home, and sometimes when i'm travelling from place to place. headaches now and the world seems to be spinning... lol...

well, here are some designs that i have come up with for the past few days, to be used for this week's church background thingee. the theme is superheros, and well... i dun think i need to ssy more... for a picture says a thousand words...

Ichigo (from bleach)

Superman

Batman

All picture are copyrighted... blah blah blah... sources are blah blah blah...

Hope you like them. for more enquires or requests for specific superheros, do let me know. =)

cheers

rE:

2006-02-16T10:44:00.000+08:00

wanted to get down to writing my blog, but apparently, dun havethat much time to do so... work is fine... kinda got down to nowing what i am supposed to do... but still feeling a bit lost about it. anyway... important decisions to make are coming soon, or should i say, are already here and need to be done.

1stly - i gotta choose my specialisation...
cos i just got to attend a semiar yesterday about the intergrated chip (IC) industry and of course it sounded good... but then i came to realise that being an engineer means that i would not have a lot of time to myself, as in being an IC designer means a lot of time needs to be put into my work... anyway, with my grades, i dun think they will chose me anyway... but at least submit it... and give it a shot... haha...
but more importantly would be that i more or else confirmed i'll be going into photonics and this would lead to my other decision

2ndly- i gotta choose my fyp
actually my fyp (final year project) should be done in , duh, my final year, but my mentor was saying that i can actually start doing it now, during my attachment. but i still gotta consider if i wanna embark on the fyp that the prof offered me. and i still dun know what and how it would be done.
do i need to go back to sch and do the project every evening? and etc...

gotta get down and pray and ask God which would be the correct decision to make.

life is full of decisions, some more urgent than others, some straight out direct, some, well, u dun really have a choice. =)

cheers

Re: things to do on v-day

2006-02-14T18:20:00.000+08:00

Well... its valentines' day again... so if you're without a date... here are some things that you can do.

10) Ask all your other friends that are without dates and go out together. (since you can't have a date does not mean u can't have many dates!! =] )

9) take this chance to update your blog (like wat im doing now)

8) tidy up your room (in case some friends come over)

7) ask your parents about things that they remember that you did when you were a child (family bonding time)

6) take out your books and study (at least you have a quiet night to do that for once)

5) play online games the whole night (eg maple story, slikroad, RO, WOW)

4) improve on your musical skills, either singing, guitar playing or the piano (and hope that you will be able to sweep girls off their feet and get a date)

3) Sleep the whole night away!!! (recommanded) (hey, at least you get to recharge from the stress of this day)

2) call a friend that you know would be out on a date (not recommanded) (since you can't get a date, why not ruin one? lol)

1) give you ex-girlfriend a call (really not recommanded) -_-

so watever it may be, here's wish all a HAPPY VALENTINES DAY. @->--

Re: cell

2006-02-10T09:43:00.000+08:00

Yestersday i had cell group, or EVBS, as we called it. it was fun and the testimonies that we shared were all great. Bro sean also had a short sermon which i felt, spoke to all the hearts of the people who were in the room. I would have hoped that my friend, wee keong, would have been able to make it down. but due to work in the office, he was unable to leave the workplace as there were things that needed to be done.

But I do know and pray that the one day when he does make it down to church or cell, that God would turn his left upside down and right side up. I also need to have more time to talk to him as due to being in the different departments, i have not been able to talk to him much.

Onward charge, and bring down heaven to earth, by bringing the good news to all. Amen.

Re: Sniff sniff

2006-02-08T18:27:00.000+08:00

Not feeling all too well today... having a running nose all day long since the day started. but at least I'll be going to watch a movie soon! I just hope that i dun fall asleep in my current sickly state. ohoh... time to go... almost time to knock off... (at630pm.. sheeh...)

Just got a call... i think my mum is cooking tonight. dun know if it would be nice if i went out to watch a movie though. darn... haiz... will have to decide later then. knocking off work is so much better. at least I'll be out of the air con.... i miss the sun!!! need to go to the beach soon... if i have the time that is... so many things to do and decide nowadays... but still... life go on... and on... and on... blah blah... signing out... zzzzzz.....

Re: thoughts

2005-04-20T03:16:00.000+08:00

have you ever noticed that when sometimes, certain things in life, no matter how you think about it or try to figure it out.... you could never do so.

however, with another person's help, to point the way, to share that problem, to figure out what the thing is, it suddenly becomes all so clear...

so, get a friend, and share with that friend, the small and big things in life

Re: race day

2005-03-27T04:32:00.000+08:00

yeah... today was my biathlon race day, it was real fun to do this race and it is one of my favourite cos i combines swimming and running altogether... =)

but this year was at east coast and the swimming part was a real killer... cannot see where the markings of the route was. not to mention, you get stung by something in the sea. sharp acute pain keeps on coming while you are swimming against the current. *ouch ouch*

however, the run part was still the normal ones, and it was indeed shady like the officials keep on say. i kept to my pace and completed with lots of energy to spare. this year the food and drinks that i have taken prove to be a crucial part of my race, as i have not been training too much... hees...

but i'm glad i've completed my second biathlon and hope to do more in the years to come... maybe even add a triathlon to my belt, if i managae to get a good road bicycle... any recommendations??

yeah... too tired now... need to rest... Zzz....

*will try to add photos when i can... hee....*

Re: prayer

2005-03-27T02:55:00.000+08:00

oh oh... almost forgot to mention that God answered my prayer today!!

after my race, just after i boarded the bus... it began to start raining... and it was quite heavy too... and as it was approaching my stop i prayed that when i reach there the rain would stop or get smaller... and it did!! Praise the Lord! hees... and i reached home dry... without getting drenched in the rain

He answers prayers...

Re: the cross

2005-03-26T14:19:00.000+08:00

what made Jesus embrace the cross?

i watched the passion of Christ today on good friday in church and that was the question that was going through my mind all the time.

the reason that He did that was because He knew what the cross meant to Him. He knew that the cross was the only way that allowed Man's redemption to God once again... He knew that the cross was the Father's plan, and that was the way that the Father had wanted Him to go through. He knew that the cross was that which He had came down to earth for, that it was only by the cross, that all that He came down for was to be accomplished.

He knew that He knew that the cross was that and more. the cross was the reason that He came and He had to embrace the cross that was the way that the Father made for Man's salvation.

He embraced it because of love. the love for all mankind. the love that He had for you and me since the day we were in our mother's womb. and it was that same love that held Him on the cross, the same love that reconciled both Man and God.

it was Love...

Re: truth

2005-03-26T05:55:00.000+08:00

the truth hurts... but i would rather the truth me told to me, and let bear with it all at once, rather than to guess about it for the rest of my life, which would mean a slow dying process...

Re: promise?

2005-03-26T05:51:00.000+08:00

why is it not surprising that i know that i know that some people do not keep their promises? the things that they say so very much contradict that which they do... haiz... not the first time anyway that such a thing has happened... do such people love breaking their promises especially after they said it in such a convincing manner?

haiz... trust has been given and so it has been broken. and that in that shows the true colours. but watever... i will not be brought down... stay strong and stay on course...

that which has drove down the hill, i hope that you would turn back... sometimes, things are not always the best the way that you see it...

although a feel that this appiles to me to, as in the breaking of promises part, but certain promises i do keep, and i have kept them even till now.(like 2 years??) it is usually the other party that breaks it first, and in a matter of weeks too... haiz... sometimes, being too trustworthy is bad... always being bullied by people... hate it... good bye...

Re: imperfection

2005-03-24T09:43:00.000+08:00

there is no such thing as perfection, because the world is imperfect. yet it is this imperfection that make the world beautiful....

Re: memories

2005-03-23T18:33:00.000+08:00

When posed with the question that "if you could have your memories erased," would you actually say yes to it? "it would help you to be more efficient in the things that you do, because you would be without all those "excess baggage" that would actually hamper you from making the best out of who you are."

for me, although the thought of it would be tempting, but i would rather live a life of memorises than to do without them.

memories, no matter good or bad, have come to shape who you are. they are, to a certain degree, the things that make up the way that you behave towards certain matters and how you react to situations. for example, if you almost drowned when you were young, most of these people would grow up being afraid to go near swimming pools or the sea. i guess that when it comes to bad memories, the self naturally comes up with a certain self defense mechanism that reflects upon the memory itself.

of course, who does not wish to have those bad memories erased? by doing so, it would save so much trouble in having to overcome them. just at a touch of a button, they would all be gone, and the world would be so much of a better place.

this in itself speaks of a person who does not dare to face up to the problems that pop up in life. it is in overcoming these bad memories that one can be allowed to grow, allowed to be a stronger person in the end. that which does not kill you, can only make you stronger. being an overcomer rather than being overcome, is something that only with memories of past events, can such action be possible.

do not think that good memories would hence not lead to excess baggages. some people, being so caught up in the past, do not wish to move forward. these are people who keep on saying that 'it was much better in the older days' or things like ' i wish that things could be like last time'. it is time to wake up and see that things have indeed changed, it is no longer like that of the past. buildings have been demolished and new ones are come up. if one is so stuck up at, ' the past being better' the reality is that if one still stays in the past, you too will become history.

believe in creating something new today. memories are there to remind you of who you are. tap on those memories and build a better future with what you have in your hands now. of course there will be times where one hopes to go back to the past, but rememeber not too dwell too much upon it. for such memories are left in the past for a reason, so that one can go on with life and be stronger to face the greater challengers ahead.

Re: what matters

2005-03-22T00:48:00.000+08:00

when it comes to life... what is it that matters in a person? is it how they look? or is it how much money they have?

i believe that as much as the above mentioned things may be good, the most important that one should look at when being a person is character.

you may ask, why character? cos i believe that just with this point, it would very well cover all the other goood things that follow it.

character is define as who a person really is. many times in life, be it if we want to or not, we start to wear masks, masks that hide who we really are. at times, masks are worn to present a better side of ourselves to another person. but that in that, means that one is not true to oneself. but then again, who can blame you for doing that?

being one of character means a person who is not ashamed of showing who he or she really is to another person. that person is confident of who he is, not needing things or masks to define who he is deep inside.

but in doing this, there is a catch to it. in doing so, in showing people who you are, means that you are vulnarable to people. why? cos you would be sharing the true side of who you are. and at times, people may not like that way that you are, and try to at times to hurt you. and believe me, it hurts.

so why not wear a mask like everyone else? cos it's all about being who you are.
i would rather be who i really am in front of people than to live a life of forever behind a mask. things that i do not have, i do not try to act that as if i have them. if people fall in love with the mask that you wear, would they be people who still love you when that mask is taken down one day? as much as the hurts and pains that may follow, i will be who i am in front of people. the real true me. one that need not hide, one that is confident of who God made me to be.
to love me or to hate me, try as you may, i will not be brought down. love me for who i really am, and be who you really are.

Re: Life goes on

2005-02-25T21:18:00.000+08:00

Life Goes On
Mica Arisaka
Lyrics: Mica Arisaka
Compose: Yuki Kajiura
Arrange: Nishikawa Susumu, Yuki Kajiura

Every time I look up into the tear-filled sky,
A fickle wave of blue binds my chest.

If it's destiny, I will leave behind the days
That I've fought till the end of sorrow.

Life Goes On, passionately.
As long as I am alive,
Even if I were to lose sight of my real self,
Life Goes On, I want to protect it.
My heart was shattered,
And in these eyes that have seen true sorrow,
Love is overflowing.

The flowers that bloom in winter paints a misty landscape.
"Strength is tenderness" I sang.

For what and for who
Do you continue to fight for now?

Life Goes On, be reborn.
If we unknowing meet again,
I don't want to lose you a second time, but
Life Goes On. In this era,
As long as I am given life,
I catch it with these arms and this chest.
Believe in love.

Life Goes On, passionately.
As long as I am alive,
I want to share this light with you again someday.
Life Goes On, I want to protect it.
Send your prayers towards the sky.
In these eyes that have seen true sorrow,
Love is overflowing.

Re: time -- an encore

2005-02-11T14:22:00.000+08:00

back on the theme of 'time' today... i believe that at times, all of us take the other person's time for granted... i'm not saying that i'm not guilty with respect to this notion, but hey... it's something that does happen, doesn't it?? and today, i will talk more about it. remember the last time i talked about giving someone your 'time'? what happens when you take for granted the time that one gives to the other? what happens then? i guess that this is something that no one would know about, unless the person (A) who sets the time aside for the other person (B) at the expense of something, unless speaks about it in the open. i guess that when u happen to the 'victim' (the one who finds that your time is not appreciated), sometimes you only have option to take a deep breath, give a deep sigh and then get one with life. for who would you be able to voice your frustration? so to whoever who reads this, i hope that you do appreciate the person who allows you to spend time with. as well as those who you had to cancel the date with. just know that you would have firstly dashed the hopes of the person that wanted and had given time to spend with you. then know that the person would have been able to use the time to do something else, but he/she decided to dedicate that time to you, but for whatever reason, that was not to be so... know that at the end of the day, it's not as simple as just a cancelling an outing, but know that it amounts to a lot more... a lot more than that would can be bought, more than that which could be expressed in words and more than, even at times, anything in the world. Period.

Re: stuck in school on chinese new year eve

2005-02-09T06:08:00.000+08:00

hmmm... kinda getting restless in class now... it's chinese new year eve and there should not be school in the first place! hahah... but apparently, things do not really turn out to be that which you what them to be. that goes for other things in life too... haiz... so let's make the best out of it, shall we not? haha...
hmm... what topic shall i talk about today?? think think...
let's talk about time...
time is not somthing that you can hold on to... it's something that regardless of how much one may want to have control over it, you may find that at one time or another it would once again slip by, into nothingness. time, at the end of the day is a commodity, to a certain degree, something that one can trade. how should i put this, you can give 'time' to someone if you want to or deprive someone of your 'time'. so in a sense, it is something that one can give or take... it's got a opportunity cost to it too... but man has always been one that would rather hold onto time for one's sake. be it to do one's stuff or to just let the time pass away. but be it time wasted or time that is used to the max, we find that at one time or another, time would have caught up with us, and that we are old soon enough. this is very much apparent at birthday's if you notice. with every 'Happy Birthday', it seems to yell back at you that 'You're one year older!' not that it is a bad thing, but when you get older, this 'birthday' thing seems to be more of a drag, rather than that of a celebration.
and apperently, now, my time is used wasted here i guess, waiting for the tutor to come over to check on my work. but i think, the most important thing that i have learnt, is to make full use fo time. no no... don't think that i am the most hardworking person in the work, or the most organised. but rather, it is the use of time, when time is to be wasted that i am best at using it. confused?? hahah... let me give you an example.... like now, i'm waiting for the tutor to come, hence i blog, hence i make use of time. or... when i'm waiting for a person to come at the mrt, i read, hence i make use of time... blah blah blah...
it's all the small small stuff that you do that mean more i guess... at least that's how i feel it is. to recieve a huge present on occasions are of course good, but if the small small things during the other days that matter more to me. people tend to look at the apparent/big things too much, and at times, do not put the smaller things into perspective. the best things are in the finer things and i find that time, is the one of the finer things in life. the willingness to give time to a person, no matter how long it may be, is a finer thing in life. cos, like i said, time is a commodity, and to give that 'time' to a person means much.
but like all things that are good, 'time' is something that, if shared with another person, needs the other to be willing to give the 'time' back. imagine, how are you to give time to a person if he/she is not willing to give time to you? interesting notion, no??
time and tide waits for no man... but one's time can be spend waiting for another... that one's time can be set aside for another... that time, as much as one wants to, may not be spent with other, if the two hands do not clap in unison. that my friend is time...

Re: Give thanks!

2005-01-26T06:31:00.000+08:00

this thing just came to me that i need to give thanks for what the Lord has done in my life for last week, will all the blessigs that He has given me. on last friday, when my cell was out having lunch at jurong point, i saw that there was a promotion that was selling waist tonic drink. and my dad suffers from contant back pain, so i figured that i would actually go buy one for my dad later.however, after lunch when we came out from pizza hut (yum yum), i actually got the chance to go on stage for stage games, which in the end, i managed to get the tonic drink for my dad for free!! praise the Lord. but with everything comes a price, no? hahah... and i got one of my knees blue black when i fell on it during the games. but still praise the Lord! oh, and on that sunday, i also managed to get, not one, but 2 televisions when i went to do garang guni for my lovebites event. (note that it was on a sunday, therefore do not learn from me, must attend church, which i did, by leaving early for the garung guni thingee.) as i was carrying the 2 tvs around, i tried to get a cab, but there was none in sight. and i wanted to reach church as soon as i can, so i started to pray and ask God to provide. then as i wanted to follow man's wisdom, by running over to the main road, God told me to stay there, wait for a while and He would provide the best for me. then u know what happend? God happened, and across the street was a mercedes taxi waiting and turning over to pick me up! praise the Lord!! talk about travelling the best!so, dependent upon the Lord in all things in all ways. He will always be there to provide for you! keep the faith and run the race!

ARGh....

2005-01-24T18:24:00.000+08:00

hmm.... apparently, i posted that which i wanted to be n my own personal blog on the church blog... and apparently, it seems quite relevent too.... but it's a bit werid that such personal stuff, which i feel that it is, should be found on the church blog!!! argh!! panic panic.... sweating now.... hahhah... hmm.... if apparently someone does notice it, and is able to remove it, if he or she wants to.... be my guest!! hahah.... anyway, you can always refer to my own personal blog for the info too... hahha...and apparently, i have been using the word 'apparently' way too many times and apparently it is beacuse my brain is apparently not really functioning... time to hit the sack... nites all...

Re: im back!!

2005-01-24T18:21:00.000+08:00

After such a long time since I last blogged, I guess the many people who have been awaiting the time when I blog again, will at long last find that their wait is over. I blog again! =)
today was a day since a long time that I had a good talk with my bro, something that has long since been done since a long time. Actually this Saturday, I reserved the whole day to go out with him shopping, but apparently, he too was busy… can u imagine! For once my bro is busy!! Haha… then it was only today that we discussed some stuff that were close to our hearts.
The reason, if you do accept it, is that I have been particularly busy since the school started. Too many events happening in school, which all of the I am involved it. EEE week, Lovebites, FOC, just to name a few. But amidst all these events and programs, God has actually worked His way in them, in such a way that I do not come out of them with nothing, but actually learning something from it.
Firstly, I would like to apologise to Bro Sean and Sis Yvonne as I have not been attending the sermons and church services for these past 3 weeks. I have tried to be there as much as I can, but activities call. But rest assured that I have in all times made my point to my friends that I have to attend church on Sundays, and that it is something that I would do.
Since it was such a long time that I last blogged, so of course there are lots of thing that I would like to but it down, before I actually forget about it.
(Flashback)
Few months back, when I watched the movie ‘Alexandra’ one thing that struck me was that Alexandra was a person who had a dream. He wanted to conquer the lands that were before him. He wanted to keep on going, keep in spreading his area of influence, teaching the people that he had conquered things that were practiced in his homeland. But eventually, according to the movie, the people around him killed him. And he knew that there was poison in the wine that he took, but he took it anyway. What was the reason that the people around him, friends/commanders that have went through thick and thin to fight and conquer the unknown lands, decide to kill him off? It was because they did not have the same vision as Alex, they did not see the way that he saw things, but was more concerning about going back home to their wives and enjoying their life with the riches that they had gained. This was totally in contrary to what Alex wanted. He wanted to conquer the lands, as much as he could do so. But in the end, his vision had to die as the people around him, his commanders did not have that of the same vision. This in sense relates a lot to how I feel towards the church vision, that one must group together people who have the same vision as you have, if not, in the end, not only will the vision not come to pass, even the vision carrier would get ‘killed’ in the process.
As for that of the more recent stuff, it was just that our God is one that does not compromise, therefore there is no two ways about the things that He has told us to do. There is no sitting on the fence, but if God says it’s like that, it’s like that. No other way or choice to go about it.

cheers

first paper

2004-11-05T04:20:00.000+08:00

yesterday i just had my first exam for this sem... not too bad.... felt comfortable while i was doing it... other than "the questions that seperate the scholars from the normal people", the rest of the questions were fine...
went to Jurong Point after the paper, bought supplies as well as new tank for my fishes... at least now they look happier than before... at least got more space to swim about... not to mention that that would also free up space for my pet beetle... hahah... yup, a pet beetle... that day, it ate the apple slice that i gave it... very cool... but dun know how big it will grow... still looks the same after so many days... sad point to note, my friends keeps on blowing smoke into the container holding the beetle and it got smoked AGAIN!!! argH.... hate it when he does that... can u imagine someone doing that to you pet dog or cat or hamster... that's how i feel... really hate it when he does that... while he feels that it's just a joke... fed up...
i also tried out cooking something new yesterday night... and it was so cool!! i managed to cook rice!! after so long, i managed to get a hold as to how much water to put... and out came rice... hahaha... i also tried to do a hotplate tofu, without the hotplate... in the end i got egg tofu... not too bad lah... quite nice too... gonna try more stuff another day... cool to experiment with food... haha...
okies.... gotta go back to studying liao... cannot make it... gotta rush like crazy.... ZzzZzzz.....

great message

2004-11-02T02:28:00.000+08:00

yesterday's sermon message was about faith... which i felt was a timely one for me... cos i need it to go along with the t-shirt sales... as well as other parts of my life too... so felt that it was great... time to up the power and go out there and tell people about how God is working in our church! Amen! had a great day going out with some of the church memebers... went to toa payoh... which is super far away(from my school at least)... and had makan... and we were like super LOUD, which is i think you know who u are... hahah... after that caught a bus... literally had to catch it lor(*pant pant*)... then went to the library and borrowed a sketching kind of book... for those that have came to my hall... you would know that i have recently started to draw... so, im learning i guess... and lastly... i caught a beetle... a real horned beetle... although i'm thinking like what to feed it... my friend was like blowing smoke into the container every now and then till like the poor guy was made silly by all the smoke... talk about smoking that kills... *eagh* yupyup... at night had a discussion night with my friend which was super cool... and she bought a t-shirt from me too... yeah! cool! next in line would be my mei, who just came back yesterday... exam time liao lor people... gotta study hard and glorify God!!! 加油加油... study time liao... blog later... *mug mug mug*

what time is it...

2004-11-01T08:05:00.000+08:00

place... NTU hall 10
time... 0405hrs

apparently no one would be awake at this unearthly hour... it's a sunday morning, usual for people to sleep in till late, but no..... not for me... so you would ask, why not sleep? reason, cos i can't... it's a sunday... so have to be at church early in the morning to setup the stuff, not to mention to pray... last last week, i was also in hall (talk about not having a life), and i slept, therefore i was late for setting up, late for prayer, and the AVA was in a mess... felt super bad, could not really get my heart down to worship... so, dun really want that to happen.
secondly, it's like.... er....3 days to exams, but im not studying!!! why?? i also dun know... too confident?? never... cos i have not even finished my work... therefore, im awake still... gonna study till the break of dawn i guess... coffee coffee... i need you now... lalala... going crazy liao... better get my sleeping hours back in time... although i have always said that im noctural... but im still human... and there is something know as the body clock mechanism within everyone of us... so... so... so... Oops... sorry... brain jammed back there... now where was i.... oh yes... yup yup... better sleep at the correct time soon... so... jia you!!! you can do it!! (self fulfilling prohesy)
ZZzzzz.............